inner/outer

trapped inside this decaying carcass
lives a girl I've long neglected
underneath the mounds of flesh
she breaths and moves
struggling against the outward
fighting to be
against the forces suppressing her
the despair
the laziness
entropy
she surfaces like a drowning body
gasping for air
grasping at straws
refusing to succumb to the darkness below
the comforting darkness of oblivion
anonymity
loveless but for love of self
a minimal feeling at best
loathing of all but mostly self
a sad state
fat cow
giving in to outward forces
smothering the girlish figure
with chocolate and self hate